never really ready

I’m trying so hard not to expect too much too soon, not to put too much weight on what I so desperately hope may come to be between you and I; I don’t want to give you the ability to break my heart so quickly. But falling for you is not a choice. I am unquestionably yours, and I have been since mere moments after we met. The connection was instantaneous, lacking in any sense of awkwardness. It was just comfortable. So natural, it verges on the surreal. Unexpected, unsought, and still absolutely undeniable. Since the first night, I haven’t been able to stop thinking of you. As soon as we’re apart, I can’t wait to see you again. You’ve consumed me. I want nothing more than to get lost in you. I want you to fall in love with me with abandon; I want to fall in love with you all over again every day. You terrify me in the most exhilarating way, and I don’t want this feeling to stop. I want this to last. I don’t know why, but I think you might be the one for me. Oh god, please want me as much as I want you. It will be worth it. I promise.